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  Any Given Doomsday

  Lori Handeland

  NOTE: If you purchased this book without a cover you should be aware that this book is stolen property. It was reported as “unsold and destroyed” to the publisher, and neither the author not the publisher had received any payment for this “stripped book.”

  This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, organizations, and events portrayed in this novel are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.

  ANY GIVEN DOOMSDAY

  Excerpt from Doomsday Can Wait copyright © 2008 by Lori Handeland.

  Copyright © 2008 by Lori Handeland.

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  ISBN: 0-312-94919-7

  EAN: 978-0-312-94919-8

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  Acknowledgments

  Grateful thanks to:

  My editor, Jen Enderlin, a brilliant talent and a great cheerleader. Thanks for letting me go where the muse takes me.

  My sons, who turned into such lovely young men. I’m so proud.

  My husband, for singing “You are my sunshine,” in answer to my every snarl. (Yep, he’s a keeper.)

  My first-Thursday-of-the-month breakfast group—without you I’d go stark, raving nuttier.

  Chapter 1

  On the day my old life died, the air smelled of springtime—budding trees and just-born flowers, fresh grass and hope. I should have known right then that something was coming.

  I’ve always been psychic. I’ve never once been happy about it. In fact, I did everything I could to drown that gift in the realities of a normal life.

  But normal went out the open doorway that morning in early May, and I never got it back again. I’m not sure I ever really had it in the first place.

  I went to work as always. I’m the first-shift bartender at Murphy’s, a cop bar on the east side of Milwaukee. Twenty-five and still a bartender. I’d be more concerned about my career arc if I hadn’t already tried being a cop—and failed.

  Cops and psychics don’t mix. Go figure.

  Not that I’d ever broadcast what I could do. I wasn’t a complete moron. However, sometimes those flashes were impossible to hide. Sometimes hiding what I knew would have been more criminal than what I’d seen in the first place.

  Of course I’d tried to downplay it; I’d tried to invent excuses for the information that came to me in a way I couldn’t explain. But what excuse is there for something like that? I was never able to come up with one that made any sense.

  The cops I worked with didn’t trust me because they didn’t understand me. They avoided me as much as they could, unless they needed my help. When they asked, I had little choice but to answer, if there was any answer to be had. Eventually my too accurate hunches had led to a disaster, and I’d had no choice but to leave the force.

  Thank God for Megan Murphy. Without her, I don’t know what I would have done.

  Luckily Megan had been in my situation before— without income, alone in the world, and desperate. Just because I was the reason she was a widow didn’t mean she wasn’t going to help me.

  A lot of cops become private detectives when they leave the force. I had the training; I even had a gun. All I would have had to do was get my license and hang up a sign.

  ELIZABETH PHOENIX —DICK FOR HIRE.

  Can you imagine the business I’d get just from the walk-ins?

  In the end, I’d taken the job at Murphy’s. I figured I owed Megan, and at the time I’d wanted nothing more than to be flogged daily for what I’d done. Becoming a bartender in a cop bar after getting my partner killed was a good place for that.

  That morning I had customers pounding on the door before eleven a.m. There’s a reason beer made Milwaukee famous. When the sun shines and the temperatures climb above freezing, people in my hometown make a beeline for the Miller Lite.

  I propped the front door wide open, all the windows, too, and watched the just-sprouted tree limbs waver, sending dappled shadows dancing across a sidewalk the shade of storm clouds. The spring wind stirred my hair, and goose bumps sprang up all over my body despite the uncommon heat of the day. I was possessed with a sudden and undeniable urge to—

  “Leave.”

  The five off-duty cops at the bar glanced up from their beers and sandwiches. They looked at each other, then back at me.

  “Not you,” I said.

  They returned to their meals, but not without a few eye rolls and one derisive snort.

  Why on earth had I said that out loud? No matter how hard I tried to be normal, the truth remained—I wasn’t.

  The lunch help hadn’t arrived yet, but that didn’t matter. Everyone at Murphy’s was a regular. Often, when Megan had a problem late at night with one of her kids, she’d toss the keys to the top cop in the place and go about her business.

  “Kenny.” The man looked up from his Reuben with a scowl. I was already headed around the end of the bar. “Got an emergency. I’ll be back as soon as I can. The lunch shift will be here in ten.”

  Kenny’s scowl of annoyance became a frown of confusion. “What emergency? You didn’t even get a call.”

  What else is new? I thought.

  I did use my cell phone once I got into the car, but Ruthie didn’t answer, which wasn’t surprising. Sometimes I wondered how she juggled all the responsibilities in her life without two extra sets of hands.

  Ruthie was an ancient black woman who ran a group home on the south side of Milwaukee amid an explosion of ranch houses built in the 1950s. Nice yards. Good schools. A lot of last names that ended in ski.

  Back in the old days, Ruthie had been the only African American within thirty miles. She hadn’t cared. Amazingly, no one else had either. Ruthie was like that.

  People who would have walked across the street to avoid a… well, let’s not say the word, took to Ruthie like a long-lost auntie.

  Nowadays a few more colors had popped up amid the Caucasians, though the majority of the names still ended in ski.

  Twenty minutes later, I parked at the curb and contemplated the only two-story house on the block. Things appeared quiet. Why wouldn’t they? At this time of day, the kids were in school. Ruthie might not even be here.

  However, I’d learned over the years that whenever I felt the urge to see Ruthie there was always a damn good reason.

  I got out of the car and headed up the walk.

  Ruthie was a no-nonsense throwback to a time when patents ruled with love and an iron fist. Once Ruthie took you in, she never gave you up. She understood that part of the problem for throwaway kids was the being thrown away. She was the only mother I’d ever known— or perhaps the only one 1 allowed myself to remember.

  1 reached the porch before I saw it—that tiny sliver of shadow creeping onto the cement through the half-open door. My hand automatically went to my hip, but my gun hadn’t been there in months. I missed it then more than 1 ever had before.

  Though I knew better, I pushed open the door and began to c
all her name. “Ruth—”

  The scent and sight of blood caused the word to stick in my throat.

  I found her in the kitchen, lying in a puddle of sunshine and blood. She’d always loved the sun, really hated blood.

  I dropped to my knees. I wanted to check for a pulse but her throat… She didn’t have much of one left.

  “Lizbeth.” Her eyes opened. “I knew you’d come.”

  “Don’t try to talk.” How could she talk? “I’ll call—”

  “No.” She closed her eyes, and for an instant I thought she was gone. What would I do if I lost her? She was the only person who truly loved me on this earth.

  “Ruthie!”

  “Shh.” She patted my knee, leaving a bloody splotch. Strange, but her hand looked as if it had been bitten, mangled. For that matter, so did her—

  “I’ve been waitin’ for you to come around, but you haven’t.”

  I winced. I’d been working a lot of hours. What else did I have to do? Except visit the woman who’d taken me in off the streets.

  “I’ll come more often. I promise.”

  Her gaze suddenly bored into mine. “When I’m gone, it’s up to you.”

  “Ruthie, don’t—”

  “The final battle,” she managed, though her voice was fading, “begins now.”

  She grabbed my hand in a surprisingly strong grip for a dying old lady, then my skull erupted in agony and everything went black.

  Chapter 2

  When I awoke from the coma more had changed than the weather. I distinctly recalled going to Ruthie’s house on a clear, spring day.

  Post-coma, the windows of the hospital room revealed swirling snow. I experienced a moment of panic, thinking I’d lost nearly a year, then remembered where I lived.

  In southern Wisconsin, April sunshine sometimes brought May blizzards.

  A movement in the room caused me to turn my head. A blinding flash of pain made me close my eyes, and what I saw when I did made me open them again.

  “Whoa,” I muttered. “That’s new.”

  Sure, I was psychic, but I’d never had a vision. If that’s what the horrific scene I’d just flashed on had been.

  No. Couldn’t be. I’d seen monsters. Tooth and claw, lots of blood and death—and I’d seen them at Ruthie’s place.

  That hadn’t happened, couldn’t happen except in a—

  “Nightmare,” I mumbled, my tongue dry and thick. Who knew what meds they’d been giving me. There was no such thing as monsters—unless you counted those who preyed on the weak and the innocent, which, of course, I did.

  I tried to remember what had happened when I’d gone through that open door, seen the blood, started screaming Ruthie’s name. But I couldn’t remember, and trying only exhausted me so much I slipped back into the soft, dark place where safety beckoned.

  Funny, I hadn’t needed a safe place since before I’d come to Ruthie’s.

  When I awoke again, Laurel and Hardy had drawn two chairs next to my bedside.

  Their names were really Hammond and Landsdown, but one was tall and thin, kind of dopey-looking, the other was shorter, fatter, even dopier. They were homicide detectives and about three thousand times smarter than they appeared.

  “What do you want?” I reached for the bed controls to raise my head and shoulders. If there were anything seriously wrong with me, the doctors wouldn’t have let these guys darken my door.

  As soon as I was upright, my mind flashed on what had happened to put me here. Suddenly I remembered everything, or almost everything.

  “Who in hell hit me?” I demanded.

  Hammond’s eyes widened. “Hit you? When?”

  “I went to Ruthie’s. The door was open—” Very un-Ruthie-like, as was the blood all over the walls.

  The significance of these two being homicide detectives reached me at last. So I wasn’t firing on all cylinders; I blame the coma.

  “She’s dead, isn’t she?”

  “Yes,” Landsdown said simply.

  I wanted to cry, but I wasn’t sure how. People like me have the crying beat out of them pretty early.

  They waited a respectable amount of time for me to shed a tear, and when I didn’t, they moved on.

  “What did you see?” Hammond asked.

  I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and experienced again the flashes of tooth and claw, the strange, nightmarish beings that couldn’t be real. What had they been putting in my IV?

  I shook my head, opened my eyes and met Hammond’s steady gaze. “Ruthie on the kitchen floor. I went to her.”

  “Was she alive?” Landsdown prompted.

  They seemed to follow the tag-team method of questioning—first one, then the other, no good cop/bad cop for these guys. They were almost interchangeable.

  “Yes,” I answered.

  “Did she speak?” That was Hammond.

  “She said ‘I knew you’d come.’“

  “Why would she know that?”

  I hesitated. Why had she? I’d gone there on a whim, beset with an irresistible urge to see her.

  “I have no idea,” I said, then frowned. “What about the kids?”

  Ruthie’s was always filled to capacity, which meant there were up to eight children living in that house along with her. I hoped to God none of them had come home and found us.

  “They’re fine,” Landsdown assured me. “All at school. Didn’t see a thing.”

  “Good.” I let out the breath I was holding. “Where are they now?”

  “Back in the system.”

  I winced, but there wasn’t anything I could do about it. Even if I were capable of mothering eight problem kids, the state would never let me.

  “You think someone hit you?” Hammond asked.

  “Someone did. Ruthie grabbed my hand and then… wham! Next thing I knew I woke up here.”

  The two of them exchanged glances.

  “What?”

  Landsdown nodded and Hammond spoke. “According to the doctor there wasn’t a mark on you. No head trauma. No gunshot or knife wound. No drugs in your system.”

  “But—” I lifted my hand, trailing tubes and sensors. I didn’t feel any bumps. “How long have I been out?”

  “Four days.”

  I glanced at the window where snow still swirled. I’d been right about the weather. Still springtime in Wisconsin. Gotta love it.

  “Someone hit me,” I insisted stubbornly.

  “Maybe you fainted.”

  I glared at Landsdown. I did not faint at the sight of blood like a swooning maiden.

  “If no one conked me on the head,” I pointed out, “then why was I in a coma for four days?”

  Hammond shrugged. “No one knows.”

  The two detectives shifted in their chairs, then twitched their necks as if their ties were too tight. Considering that the offending pieces of clothing appeared to have been loosened hours ago, perhaps when they’d slept in those suits, I didn’t need a psychic flash to understand they wanted to ask me something, and then again, they didn’t.

  “We need a favor.” Hammond actually tried to smile. He must have needed a favor bad.

  “Mmm,” I said noncommittally. Without even a do you mind? Hammond tossed something at me, and I caught it. The instant I did, I murmured, “Jimmy.”

  “Jesus,” Landsdown muttered. “How do you do that?”

  I wish I knew. Because if I did maybe I could quit doing it.

  If wishing could have made the bursts of intuition disappear, they’d have been gone shortly after I was able to voice what I’d been seeing all my life. That was when everything pretty much went to hell.

  “Where is he?” Landsdown demanded.

  “What?” I shook the cobwebs from my mind, peered at the baseball cap gripped desperately in my fingers. The Yankees. I hated the Yankees. Doesn’t everyone?

  “Do you see where he is?” Hammond murmured.

  My heart picked up in panic. These guys were homicide. However, if they wanted m
e to tell them where Jimmy was, he couldn’t be dead. Or at least I hoped not. I might have kicked him out of my bed a long, long time ago, but I’d had a much tougher time kicking Jimmy Sanducci out of my heart.

  “No.” I pitched the cap into Landsdown’s ample lap. “What do you want with him?”

  They exchanged glances again. The two of them were like an old married couple, which is what most longtime partners were. They squabbled, made up, shared jokes, and spoke without having to speak.

  My partner and I had been like that, which was why he’d listened to me when I said I had a “hunch” where we could find the strung-out junkie who’d killed his supplier. Because of me, that strung-out junkie had also killed Max.

  “You’re acquainted with Sanducci?” Landsdown’s voice brought me back to the hospital.

  “You know damn well I am.”

  They might be annoying, but they were thorough. They knew about Jimmy and me—at least what was fit to print in the records of social services.

  “When was the last time you saw him?”

  I didn’t bother to be nice. I rarely did—especially when the conversation involved Jimmy Sanducci.

  “I believe it was right after I told him not to let the door hit him in his incredible ass on his way out of my life.”

  Hammond coughed, but his lips quivered as he tried not to laugh.

  “You had a relationship with Mr. Sanducci?” Lands-down asked.

  “No.”

  What Jimmy and I once had could by no stretch of the imagination be called a relationship. Jimmy didn’t understand the meaning of the word. In truth, neither did I. I shouldn’t be angry with him, but I was.

  “Why are you looking for him?”

  Hammond met my eyes. “Why do you think?”

  For several beats I still didn’t get it. When I did, I straightened so fast Hammond reared back and nearly upset his chair.

  “Jimmy wouldn’t hurt anyone.”

  “He wasn’t so particular about hurting people when he was a kid.”